Please please help me find God!?

i have no religion and i just cant seem to find one i believe in i have talked to priests and rabbis and pasters and all lot of people and they all say the same things over and over, im having a really hard time right now i have a boy who will be 3 in feb and a girl who is 16 months old and a baby boy just 7 weeks and im only 21 my husband is not helping me out with the kids and tonight he went to gamble 1hr 30mins away and its the same thing every time ' i wont be out late' and he doesn't come back till 6 am i really feel i cant do it anymore i need something to help me thru but life just keeps putting big obstacles in my path and im just to tired and weak to jump over them anymore. what should i do? i cant leave him i dont work and i have a 10th grade edu. im allways STUCK i want to just walk away and say 'i give up' PLEASE how can i find faith please save me from my own hell